Personal Log - Auto-Experimentation: Magus Ex Nihilo III Subject: Strix Stonegut
Day 1: Initiated conscious command protocols. The PCCM remains unresponsive to direct mental impulses. Measurements show increased activity around the implant site during attempted activation, but no energy manifestation. The conduit recognizes the command but refuses to execute. It requires a key I have not yet found.
Day 4: Incident 04-A. Logistics Officer Krin’s profound inefficiency during the morning briefing triggered a wave of intense frustration. The PCCM responded instantaneously, bypassing all conscious control. A 15cm sphere of incandescent fire manifested and was expelled from my palm, vitrifying a section of the laboratory wall. The conduit is not inert; it is chaotically tethered to my emotional state. This is a catastrophic failure of the insulation matrix.
Day 5: Testing emotional triggers under controlled conditions. Using memory recall to generate specific emotional states. Frustration produces a brief thermal flare. Fear creates a localized pressure drop. The conduit is fundamentally wired to my limbic system. Conscious control must be built on top of this foundation, not in place of it.
Day 6: Instead of suppressing emotion, I’m channelling it through a conscious filter. Visualizing a valve between feeling and manifestation.
First successful test: generated irritation, captured the energy, and released it as a controlled warmth in my palm. Crude, but directional.
Day 8: Refining the bypass. Managed to sustain the generation of sparks by maintaining a state of focused curiosity. The conduit responds to emotional consistency rather than spikes. Volatility comes from emotional swings, not the emotions themselves. This explains the initial uncontrolled manifestations.
Day 10: Breakthrough. No longer need to generate authentic emotions, can simulate the emotional signature mentally while maintaining full conscious control. The conduit responds to the pattern, not the genuine feeling. Manifested a precise sphere of white fire, held it stable for three minutes, then extinguished it without residual energy.
Control is no longer reactive, the conduit is now a proper instrument.