Personal Log - Auto-Experimentation: Magus Ex Nihilo I
Subject: Strix Stonegut
Phase I: Purification - Day 1
Administered first dose of Solventia Impuritas at 06:00. Taste is acutely metallic, with persistent aftertaste reminiscent of static. By 08:30, noted mild tremor in right hand (grafted limb). The subject’s natural resistance to foreign biological material appears to be creating an unexpected reaction with the formula. This warrants observation.
Day 7
Tremors have stabilized but not ceased. The aphasia presents an interesting data point, while technical vocabulary remains intact, conversational speech requires conscious effort. The mind prioritizes function over form. The silence within is… notable. The constant hum of the laboratory’s wards, previously perceptible, is now absent. The purification is proceeding as calculated.
Phase II: Fortification - Day 3
The Tela Ferrumvita infusions are metabolically demanding. Core body temperature has elevated by 0.7 degrees and remains constant. The noted increase in dermal density is confirmed; a scalpel required 15% more pressure to break the skin on my forearm. The grafted arm shows a more pronounced integration with the formula, suggesting the existing foreign tissue provides a superior foundation. The hypothesis that my unique physiology is an asset, not a detriment, is strengthening.
Phase III: Receptivity - Session 1
The Apertura Anima vapor induces immediate disorientation. Time perception is distorted. Visions are not emotional, but structural… I see the architecture of thought, the latticework of consciousness. It is flawed. It is inefficient. I observed the “soul feedback” mechanism directly. A defensive, recursive loop in the neural pathways. It is a simple circuit. It can be broken. The haemorrhage risk is secondary to the cognitive revelation. Proceeding.